Archive for February, 2010

Cremator 305 is an art installation that I will be doing at Sweat Records on March 5, 2010.

I have been drawing lots of pictures for the past couple of years in order to deal with my feelings of inner turmoil and conflict. You know when life just seems fucking impossible? You try to stay calm and positive but there are demons inside. I have been dealing with these demons and they don’t go away. I have tried everything….but drinking and drugs only makes matters worse…believe me….I dont ever want to sleep under a bridge again…or on a golf course. Sometimes I have to deal with it myself. In my own head…as life spins out of control. This is just an exercise. I am trying my best to keep the PMA, and that is when the miracles happen. That woman that I have a huge crush on walks past the window and sees me sitting inside eating a sandwich. She comes in and laughs and starts talking about her amazing life and I dont say a word for a while and I just believe in miracles. Was it the law of attraction? Did my mind summon her to walk past that window? Damn, I fall in love so easily…and then I get broken hearted again and again….and then I have to fight the part of me that wants to get really drunk and high. I am so used to it. I have a feeling that very few people will read this. And maybe you are the one that I would not want reading this in the first place. But that is what is so great about the internet. I can put a link to this on Facebook…and then maybe whoever reads it reads it…I can delete it later. I am just enjoying the cathartic nature of this. All artists are writers. I hope that you come to my art exhibit on March 5 at Sweat Records. It starts at 7pm and there are going to be some local Metal bands playing and Kevin Warhaft is going to be performing as Jason Handelsman…it is a script that we are working on. I dont care what anyone says, Kevin Warhaft is a fucking genius. We are working on a screenplay about Metal in Miami, aliens, and Kevin Warhaft as Jason Handelsman like Face/Off. It has no title yet. But man, the shit that has been happening to me lately is only supposed to happen to other people. Every time I get my life back together….and things are going just fine….thats when I get dumped, fired, and its time to start all over again from the bottom. Bring it on, baby. Oh shit….